Egoista

Everybody has a dream. An idea of the type of person or lifestyle you want to have. If I was to describe my future self with a short phrase I would choose "well rounded but especially caring". I would love to be in a position where I've worked hard in many different aspects of life and I can give people meaningful advice that motivates and benefits them. This definitely stems from the role model my dad has set for me. My parents have collectively gone above and beyond for not only me and my siblings but also their families as well and not taken for granted the position they are in. I don't think our circumstances are the same but to somewhat apply that, I would love to give a speech at my secondary school once I'm grown and inspire the youth. I don't plan on attaining any accolades so this might be difficult but I think I'd just enjoy encouraging them into pursuing ideas that they may have. I'd give them the full lore of the things I used to do at school. It would be a real tear - jerker I recon.

One issue I want to work on is my ego. Mainly because the goal is to be a person that works hard and is proficient in multiple passions while not thinking you are better than other people because of how good you are at what you do. Although ego is okay in proportion such as being proud of your work no matter what other people think, it is very easy to let it get out of control. It can easily lead to comparing yourself to other people in a negative way. This is the line of thinking in which I think I fall subject to at times.

1. I can't believe "____" is like that now. Who would have thought?

2. I'm so grateful that I'm not in "____'s" situation. That's tough.

3. I would have never done that though

4. Life is hard right now but at least I'm not "______"

This way of thinking is bad. It's finding validation in what I perceive to be other peoples failures which I don't think is okay.

In order to prevent this. its necessary to always look to learn from others and not fully accredit the situation I'm in to just my hard work. Think about the people I relied on to get to where I am.

Seeing the break down of my thought process written down is sobering. I think right now it's very easy to stop this kind of thinking in its tracks because I recognise that my own issues are well-anchored and plentiful but hopefully I come back to this when my ego starts popping up.