Game of Life

As a male I believe life is very much like a game. The goal is like Minecraft and GTA in a way where it's free roam and you need to keep levelling up your character.  The main difference is there are more layers to the game and emotions can make the same tasks vary in difficulty on a day by day basis. For example, previously I would find that every time I try and do something consistently and to the best of my ability I always go through a period where I feel like its not enough or I'm not doing it right. I'm not entirely sure if this stems from a need for validation but I don't think so. The thing is with this feeling is that it actually means you're close to achieving  the consistency and results that you're working towards.

Going back to how emotions affect the difficulty of tasks, imagine you: wake up early; do your morning routine, go to work, get back from work and go to the gym, get back from the gym and start studying or working on a craft and finally finish the day with some reading. This is just my idea of a good day from a productivity standpoint. If this was an actual game you could just rinse and repeat until you reached the games definition of success. However, aside from focusing on just motivating yourself to do these things, you could be dealing with feelings of inadequacy or paralysis by analysis where you realise how much work you have to do and it just becomes overly daunting to the point where you do nothing. Then there's relationships with friends and family - spontaneously spending time with them or doing things with/for them. It is a lot but learning how to balance everything is what makes life interesting.

Random point: One of my friends once told me that they struggle receiving counsel or been made aware of areas they need to improve on by family or close friends. At the time they said that I couldn't really empathise but recently I've been told about areas I need to improve on from 3 different people. It's not just hard it's humiliating and takes control of my thinking even days after I receive it. It hurts because it feels like your not a good friend or family member to this person. Recognising it's from a very good place and they genuinely want you to be the best version of yourself does help.

Random point 2: Do you visibly get angry when you remember certain things you've  done? (embarrassing moments etc)